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Friday, 29 August 2008

Baby Girl...

Most think I am crazy for not wanting any girls.. but it's just when you have BIG genes, elementary school is hard life... and with DH's BIG genes added to the mix, I wouldn't know how to comfort her.

I was always taller (and chubbier) than all the boys. Always stood in the back middle for all the class pictures. Sixth grade was the worst, right before I started slimming down. Boys putting signs on my back "Save the whales, feed me", always asking me how much I weigh and then running away laughing, making fun of what I ate for lunch.. it was hard. My mom was also chubby growing up and always told me that I would outgrow it.. I never believed her and cried myself to sleep. I just don't think that I could handle seeing my daughter go through the same thing. It would just break my heart.

That isn't to say, I don't want any girls, I'm just going to have to install some massive self-esteem early on in her life. I was just going through some old pictures which made me think about this...

It's pretty bad and I can just imagine her getting DH eyebrows and then I don't know what I'd do... poor girl! The only thing that fixes it is MAKE-UP and I'm not putting mascara on my little girl...So, if I do ever have a girl, lets hope God takes matters into his own hands. But #2 is only 2 months old.. so I have a while...

LOVE, ME

Monday, 25 August 2008

So, being that I am 2 quarters shy of my BA in architecture and have worked at an architectural firm for 3 years, I have quite a bit of knowledge and understanding of building and design. So.. the back story... Me, DH and both DS are renting my parents house on 10 acres with 2 barns. They turned one of the barns into an apartment where they live. (It's actually quite nice). Well, my dad is working on turning the unfinished side of the barn they live in into a large room for my grandma. I heard about this and put a design together, calculated cost and determined we could be done by May... that was in March. My dad proceeded to say he wanted to do it his way and ditched my plan and so I just said forget it.

In late June, the new room no where near completion and he never works on it, I decided to take matters into my own hands and section off a part of the upstairs of the barn (that is currently a big gathering area for parties) and make a temporary room for my grandma because her rent is being raised at her apartment and it's alot to take on with her fixed income. She is 82 years old. So 2 months ago I started building this room.. the ceiling needed to by drywalled, the walls, a closet built, carpet, trim, paint...everything.. granted I had just had a baby a week prior. I framed out a wall and left it on the ground for me to come back to put it up the next day. My little brother (18) comes over and tell mes that dad put up my wall and in the wrong spot.. he didn't account for the width of drywall and he nailed it in with huge nails. So I ran over and begged him to stop. Of course, he wanted to work on MY project when he has an entire room downstairs that he is get to finish.. let alone work on. Men are like little kids.. they don't want that toy unless you are playing with it! Luckily he agreed to stop but said that I had to change my design to move the closet to the other side of the wall... to mask his mess up of where he nailed in the wall...ERG! "Whatever dad.. just don't touch my project". He's a man..obviously.. so he thinks that just by being a guy he knows more about construction and design than me... this drives me crazy!!

But now.. I'm almost done, installing carpet tiles today and cabinets. Grandma is moving in this Saturday and I'm 99% sure I'll be ready. I just feel bad for over committing myself. DB (Dear baby... 2 months) is pretty good and just sleeps over there while I'm working and DS (Dear Son... 2 years).. just runs around pretending to help me and watching cartoons and playing with his trucks. I'll just be glad when it's over and she'll be living here. Her rent will drop in half... (which will take some financial load off my parents)... she'll help make dinner and clean etc since my dad is home all day (retired) and makes a mess. And my mom works 10 hour days and has to come home to clean it up... but mostly.. I'll be able to spend more time with my boys again!

I'm always trying to give give give... and I forget that I need to put my kids first.. and give to them. They are most important... and keeping my house clean and dinner on the table when DH comes home.. will be a nice change, especially since we actually have money for groceries now.

All this to say, I need to work on thinking of my family and my babies before I go committing myself to unreasonable deadlines.
So, it'll be 3 weeks on tomorrow since my husband 'lost' his job and we had to take the LEAP. And it has been amazing! He has sold about 13,000 and he is really catching on to this trusting in God thing. I'm just so proud of DH. God is really taking care of us! I just feel sooo blessed with my life. My boys are healthy, strong and smart! I really couldn't ask for more!

Sunday, 24 August 2008

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August 6, 2008 - Wednesday

LEAP
Current mood: excited
Category: Religion and Philosophy

I have never really been financially 'rich'... well for a couple years we had enough to go out and spend more than we should but it's hard. Right now.. well... a couple days ago... DH was making $ 2,200 and we had $3,400 worth of bills... talk about stressful. I was building furniture, painting, doing everything to earn an extra dime.. and DH was building websites for extra money. The Lord provided through help from parents and siblings. We weren't tithing just because we couldn't pay rent. I know that is the wrong mentality but DH didn't want to, he didn't grow up seeing it's effects like I did with a single mother. Last Saturday, August 2, 2008, God told me..

"Be as a child and run to ME. I am all you need. I am your help. You cannot solve, you cannot understand or ever do what I do. You never will! Leap and I will catch you and you will soar with Me. The hardest part is the first step. Once you see what I will do for you, you won't go back. (DH) will sell, you'll find carpet, all your needs will be met according to MY riches and glory - NOT some DSHS standard. You are the child of the King and it breaks my heart that you think that you deserve any less. If you do not come to me, I cannot help you. Just trust in me as your sons trusts in you. Be as a child and surrender your all to me. You want your family to let you show them what you can do. Let Me show you what I can do. You think you dream big. I have in store for you much more than you could ever imagine, just keep being faithful in the little.
Let Go... I'll show you! Love you, Love God... PS this week is going to be amazing"

So... that was Saturday night. I thought that the 'leap' that we were to take was tithing... so Sunday morning we put $200 (we don't have) in the bucket. I was happy for finally getting to tithe and excited to see what was to come... I was completely stoked for the next week. I was sure DH was going to get some contracts at his current job and we would start rolling in the money...

Isn't it funny how you think God means one thing and He means something completely different... well... the leap was tithing but that wouldn't be considered a "leap" with the news that DH came home from work with. He was told that "it wasn't quite working out and that he could have another week to prove himself"... so he said he didn't want another week and quit... AHHHH! He felt he needed to start selling Cutco again! Now... $2200 didn't pay all the bills but at least I was positive we had something coming in. Cutco is 100% commission... if he doesn't sell.. he makes NOTHING. In January 2008 he made $2,014.. Feb... $889.. March $535.. and that is when I made him get a job.

So God tells me to LEAP.. and DH comes home and tells me he quit his job and was going to start selling CUTCO again! It's not that I think he's a bad salesman.. but he has some issues with focusing and the market isn't so great right now... but he is an amazing salesman. I have faith in him... it is just the other people I worry about.

But God says LEAP... so that's what He means... I have to follow my husband and LEAP. I knew DH wouldn't be able to have a boss (especially a woman boss) for very long but I thought he would last longer than 4 months...

So here we are... day 2 of the LEAP... he's sold $1700 so far and makes about 35% of that. But from my reading today, I cannot worry nor do I have any reason to... Finances are the only thing that God says "test me" in.. this scripture makes me cry everytime I read it because I know that God is faithful and I feel horrible for not trusting Him sooner.

We are leaping.. feels like off a Grand Canyon cliff.. He has caught us, like an eagle, and we are beginning to SOAR....

"Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it. I will prevent pests from devouring your crops, and the vines in your fields will not cast their fruit," says the LORD Almighty. "Then all the nations will call you blessed, for yours will be a delightful land," says the LORD Almighty. Malachi 3:10-12

I'm a 24 SAHM to 2 beautiful boys. Carter (4-11-06) and August (6-21-08). I'm a married to my best friend, Stephen and love my life and definitely want more kids! I love God, church and building things (2 quarters short of my BA in architecture)